That was the most difficult

experience and probably the second most rewarding experience (first being when I have a successful home birth)

I just got home and I am exhausted.

Long story short, mama had two prior c/s with both kiddos @ 9.5lbs and then we pushed out a 10lb 14oz baby! It was spectacular.

It was really scary though cause the MW's had me help out with taking notes for them. And baby had some scary decels but overall FHT's were great except in the one position.

I wanted to run home and never look back. I couldn't handle it. I stayed, I supported and I was pushed HARD emotionally with this birth. But it was fantastic! I am so glad I stayed and let me tell you. I am SO ready to be pregnant and to be in labor. I can do it. I will do it. I will be hard but OMG it was great.

So I am starting Project 365

I started a photoblog for those who are interested. I am looking forward to improving my skills so I can take some photos of June!


www.photoblog.com/brandyroth

Do you need a Doula?

Well come on down to my new website!

www.junebugdoula.com


ENJOY!

So a Much Needed Update

Well where we are in life. As a family unit, we are still attempting to adopt through the state. We need to get the yard complete and rearrange the rooms slightly then we we will be calling E. again here soon.

On that same note, Jon and I are trying to get pregnant again. It has not been happening so this afternoon I have an appointment with Dr. Beller, an OB that specializes in fertility treatments, I am excited to start the testing.

Where does that leave us for adoption though? Well since you asked, our plan is to get our home study completed. Then just hold off applying for children till after we have the new baby.

Now as for the individual updates;

Jon: His job is going well and he is now supporting a whole new program. He has one more class to finish then it is just make up classes from when Casey passed to finish his degree!

Me: I am back in school through Birth Arts International. I am currently enrolled in their Labor/Birth Doula program. I am loving it and have clients already set up.

Juniper: She is doing fantastic, we are completely potty trained now. We are doing a dance class through Spark Plug Dance and it is fantastic and will probably continue to do so for the fall.

Jim, Jon's step dad built June and us a gorgeous bunk bed w/ a trundle. That is currently in June's room. But we are going to take it apart and put a twin bed in the play room and make it an extra bedroom.

So that is what has been going on.

Till next time!

My Individual Session Today...

I have my two hour meeting with E. today. Yay! I am so excited and flipping nervous! It is just because she is making sure I am adopting for the right reasons. I am. I am adopting because I hate being pregnant and I want more children. I don't want babies because well I like older kids they do more stuff. I can communicate and listen to them. I can home school them and teach them how to be amazing adults and love the world. Encourage their likes and show them new stuff. Go camping, hiking, teaching dog agility. Everything. I want to give them everything and June too. I want to give them my entire heart and understand it may take some time for them to give it to me but that is fine. It will happen and I already have the love for them even if I don't know it.

I am ready for some more kids, or even another kid which ever fits our more but honestly. I don't care if they fit, we are an evolving family and handle it.

Gonna go start my stew now........

Karma and God Are On My Side

You know I have always been more than willing to help people out, let people with less groceries go in front of me in line, let people into traffic etc... Well today it paid off, but a back story is needed to let you all understand....

Saturday Jon and I decided to buy a lawn mower even though we really shouldn't but it was decided it was a mother's day gift. Well we got it home and decided to try it out, well it was broken. We call Walmart and they said we could come in and just switch it for a working model. We decided we'd just do it on Mother's day.

Sunday morning we go out and it is stolen. I was so sad and pissed. I mean come one we have been through so much crap! So we called and made a report to the county sheriff's office and that is we could do.

Monday called our insurance company and it wasn't enough to meet our deductible. So I post an ad on craigslist to ask if anyone had any information regarding my poor broken lawn mower.

Tuesday nothing....

Wednesday I get an e-mail and it is from the Owner of Action Mowers on Main St. in Springfield Oregon. Turns out the guys who stole it brought it to her and she had them take it back to walmart for one that works. So Walmart exchanges for the next model up because they are out of the original lawn mower takes the guys ID and and bring it back to Action Mowers. She gets the new better lawn mower from them then sees my ad on CL.

So now I know who at least one of the guys are and damn straight I am pressing charges and testifying against them......

So I get a brand new better mower and I get to serve justice to the jerks who did it!

So if you need a new Lawn Mower support an honest small business here is Springfield!

Home Sudy Visit #2 on Thursday!

I have my one on one two hour meeting with the adoption worker on Thursday @ 2pm. To talk more intensely about Jon and I and our intentions/motivations about adopting kiddos. I am super excited. Our adoption worker is e-mailing us a safety guide so we can go through and and "adoption/foster" proof the house. I know we need another smoke detector because we need one in every room where a child sleeps. We will see what else we need to do as well. Hopefully I can do most if not all of it before Thursday.