Casey Hope Roth

I am sorry I didn't post this information sooner but I have had a lot on my mind. Casey passed away at 11:10am Sunday the 23rd and was pronounced at 11:15am. She took her last breath in Jon's arms and her heart stopped beating in mine. It was the way it should have happened peaceful and with us. All four of her heart valves were donated and as far as we know are all now in there intended recipients. It is an amazing gift that she was able to give and it is peaceful to know that Jon and I created her to do this. We are at home now and welcome anyone who wants to stop by. We are planning her funeral for sometime the week of December 8th and we will be posting more information as it is planned.

Baby Update

I am so heartbroken over what has happened over the last 48 hours. Casey Hope Roth was born at 1:24am on November 20th, 2008 she weighed 9lbs 2oz and was 22 inches long. I will post her birth story another time but she was born by a very necessary quick emergency C-section. After she was born it tool 10-15 minutes to resuscitate her which included intabating and shocking her heart. We were told she had a 0-5% chance of surviving. We got to see her and she is perfect other than the wires and the tubes. So then on the 20th we had a NICU MD come to our room and talk to us. Colleen MW was in the room with us. The MD stated that she was improving and doing great that she would be in the NICU for about two months or slightly longer to do heart surgery after she got out of there. We were confused but elated about only being here two months and the baby would live. Then the morning of the 21st we walked down to the NICU and her NICU MD the one we had seen originally was there and so we asked what was up with her bleeding in the brain and what kind of surgery would be done on Casey. Her NICU MD was quite confused and said that was the baby up the hall not ours. Casey was still brain dead and not responding to any kind of stimuli. So today at 11am PST we are getting her baptized and the Rite of Passage done. Shawna is going to take pictures. We are then taking her off the cooling system to see what happens. She will either pass like that or if she shows distress we are taking her off of everything and bring her into our room to pass with just Jon and I present. I have been put on Zoloft and Xanax and it is going to be a big long road that Jon and I are not wanting to travel down but are. I have AT&T so feel free to text and call me as I am really in s dark place and need all the support I can get, I love you all..... Brandy

Labor Update #5

So we(MW and I) had a sneaking suspicion that my waters was not really broken, we did the nitrate paper and sure enough it wasn't. She tried two more times about an hour ago and the sac is too close to the babes head to get a hold of it and break it. I have magically sunk back to two centimeters from four. I am almost out of time. She will let me go until 43 weeks and that is it. She originally said 44 but when she said it it slipped her mind that I am a VBAC which she won't go past 43. So we are trying caster oil tonight and I am aware of the hell that it is. I am going to take 6oz. of caster oil with 6oz. of orange juice and take it in two 6oz. groups right after each other. To top off bad news while she was trying to break the waters the dog ate my dinner because I was stupid and left it on the ground. So I am getting my fave thai dish eating that and then around 10pm will do the caster oil. I am still contracting but apparently they mean squat. So that is my update and I don't like it.

Labor Update #4

Colleen just left my water is broken and we are on way to a baby! I may post more as the day goes on but I am not sure. The plan is two more hours of the tincture and then some nipple stimulation. Then two hours of walking, birth ball and what ever sounds good. Then call her to check in at 12:30......... So I am off to have a baby......

Labor Update #3

So I was able to fall asleep and I am now up. My contractions have slowed down a bit back to 7-9 minutes. Colleen will be over to check me about 7:15 and see if breaking my water is appropriate. I had some more mucus with blood this morning. All good signs that labor is definitely here but is taking its sweet little time. I will update after she leaves.......

Labor Update #2

So my contractions are 4-5minutes apart and lasting 55 seconds long. Talked to Colleen and she says I am definitely in labor just waiting for the intensity to pick up. I can still slightly talk coherently through them and when I can only grunt or mumble she will come over. I am to rest and do what feels natural. If I haven't gone into active labor by morning she will come over and my water will be no more but at the moment it seems unnecessary so we are just letting labor happen on it's own.

Labor Update

I am still contracting 8-9 minutes apart but they are definitely getting more intense. I spoke with Colleen and we decided on a 2 hour break from the tincture then start again and call her at 10pm. If I think I can sleep or rest some we will break my water @ 7am if my contractions are intense and I do not believe I can get some rest she will come over tonight and break my waters. So hopefully by Wednesday we should have a baby. I will update when I can. I am off to go cook dinner and such.