I am Thinking 4 should be awesome!

So Jon and I have decided that a sibling of three would be awesome from the ages of 2-12. So add them to June and then I would have four children in my home, five total. I would honestly like 12 at some point, not all at once but over time. After the kids are older or in college we plan on adopting 1-2 16&17 year old at time just to give them somewhere to come home for holidays, send letters, get gift packages from, just to call home. Then you know stop having kids around 55 or 60 so I figure I can have at least 12 children by then. I want to be the family that has to rent space for holiday dinners.

Update on Us

So I figured I would update you all on me and us;

Medication;

Went and saw my PCP last Friday and talked about the issues I have been having. She upped my prescription from 50mg to 100mg still just Zoloft. I will be going back in three weeks from tomorrow to check up ans see if we need to up it/change it or keep it the same. I have started to get what seem to be migraines that last all day and get worse in the light but Jon thinks they may just be bad tension/stress headaches. I will bring this up to my PCP when I see her again. She said I shouldn't consider taking anymore xanax since that usually doesn't work long term but to keep a few on hand in case I get into an uncomfortable situation which would cause an attack of anxiety. My PCP also wants me to do two sessions a week of counseling, couples and individual = 2 times a week.

Counseling;

Jon and I went to our intake appointment and our counselor James seemed really nice we will see him once weekly and our payment is 30$ per session starting next week (the intake is free) We will mostly be working on our grief and understanding how to communicate our grief and feelings with each other. That is the main focus of our couples therapy.

I have to call my individual therapist back tomorrow to set up my intake session. I am hoping we can just go off my income (600$ per month from daycare) so we won't have to pay 60$ a week for counseling. If not we will pay it would just be better not to pay 240$ a month, kwim?

Cars;

My crazy uncle who was going to buy me a britax car seat for Casey decided since he couldn't buy me a car seat that he would give me his 1989 Ford Aerostar for free. It only has 62000 miles on it. I had to get the heater core replaced, oil/transmission change, title transfer and new tires which cost me roughly around 700$ not bad for a free car that is now in perfect running condition.

Moving;

Kind of at a stand still. Most of the necessary items are moved in and Jon is getting 5 teeth removed via oral surgery tomorrow. Mostly this weekend is going to be clothes and our desktop computer. Then next week is St. Vinnies and CL and trash bags. We have until the 21st to be completely out of there.

Me;

I got my nose pierced tonight and I am joining Curves this weekend because I got a great deal for no service fee and just the monthly fee of 35$. So I will start doing that 5 days a week excluding Thursday and Sunday. I started alli and that is going great. I have lost 15 lbs so far. I am on my way only 105lbs to lose. thumb up I am hoping to have it lost by my 5th wedding anniversary next May which seems like a healthy and obtainable goal. Still trying to find a tattoo artist who has had a miscarriage or lost a child to do my tattoo.

Jon;

Is doing super well at his job! He isn't supposed to technically get a raise till he has been there for a year so roughly around next August but his manager said he is being fast tracked and will most likely be getting it April or May and that will be 5-6000 more a year depending on the level! So proud of him. He is a little apprehensive as he is starting classes again tonight to finsih his bachelors. He missed two classes because of everything that has happened with Casey. I have a lot of faith and pull for him!

June;

Is extremely excited about her big girl room. And Jim is almost done with her bunk beds so I think she will be all about sleeping in her room soon. We started Kindermusik on Tuesday and she adored it! I am so glad to be able to do this with her.

Cats;

Are getting spayed and micro chipped on Monday and are overall adjusting to the move.

Dog;

Is loving the yard.


That is all and if you made it through all of this you seriously rock my socks

Counseling

I am going to start counseling for myself as well as a couple with Jon. We have been attending an Infant Loss Support Group that meets once a month but I have decided I would like more one on one time with a counselor and Jon and I also decided that we would do some couple counseling focusing on working through each others grief together. I don't imagine this will be easy but I do feel it a necessary step in our grieving process.

June Activities!

Today is story time at the Springfield Public Library and it is every Wednesday. Then next Tuesday we are starting Kindermusik which June adored the trial class we did so I think she is going to really enjoy it. It last for 15 weeks and covers string instruments. It is a mommy and me class so it should be exciting!

Well I am volunteering now.....

I was e-mailing the director of the Lane County Heart Gallery about some kids that are listed on there website and mentioned that I stay home and she said that they could use some help on the newsletter that goes out bi-monthly. I said I could easily help since I can do it at home. So this morning I went and filled out the volunteer application and confidentiality form and got the document to put into there newsletter program. I am super excited to start this!

Painting......

So painting is going well and we will probably be done tonight with it. WOOT! I am so glad to be one step closer to being out of this apartment and into our home. I'm so excited to move and hang up pictures! I plan on having a dinner for everyone when we are settled!

Ode to My In-Laws!

My in-laws were very obvious in the distaste of me with Jon in the beginning of our relationship even when we first got married nearly four years ago. Though over the last four years out relationship has improved dramatically. I am so thrilled that my father-in-law Jim is making a bunk bed w/trundle for us. You know how cool it is going to be to have a homemade bed by Grandpa! For June and our adoptive kids. He also made June a functional wooden high chair for her "babies" and it is gorgeous! My mother-in-law Novena makes June a whole bunch of skirts and toys and has even start making felt foods, tonight we got some felt potato chips, lol. I am so lucky to have them as my in-laws even if we don't agree on some stuff they aren't that judgmental and are open to learning about why we do stuff which means a lot.

We get the keys @ 10:30!

We get to pick up our keys @ 10:30! I am so ready to be out of this apartment!